I truly don’t know what’s happening with me. I feel like i’m spiraling out of control, I will have 2 or 3 days of clean eating then I will fall off the wagon and binge. I know it’s a mental health thing, I have to be better, I will be better, I will succeed, I […]
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What now?
This may come as a shock considering my lengthy history with keto, but I have switched to macro tracking and using a fitness app to better my strength training. Yes, i’ve heard the yells, “How dare he!?” I’ve heard the laments of the keto community, “He has abandoned us!” I benefit from having strong counsel […]
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Delusions of grandeur
Hi, my name is nathan beck and i’ve decided to be completely delusional for 2023. My head will be in the clouds for all of this new year and hopefully the following year as well. Call it farfetched but I am welcoming all blessings and manifesting great things for myself and my son. I am […]
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My 2022 fitness summary
Much like Sp0tify Wr@pped (no free promo here bitches!) where it summarizes your music at year’s end, I dug into my 2022 fitness stats. I found a lot to celebrate: 86+ gym workouts, monthly averages of 1100+ calories burned, good sustainable heart rate numbers, etc. So it got me thinking, wouldn’t it be cool if […]
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Life is so hard
This 2012 Tumblr ass post.
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Breakfasts
Breakfast can be anything I want it to be! Sometimes I’ll do sausage, or leftover roast, or just eggs and spinach! But breakfast help me stay on track, high protein and high fat ones! A lot of the time I’ll fry up some sausage, add eggs and spinach, season everything well, add some cheese and […]
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Binge eating my feelings away
Yikes y’all, I’ve been struggling with binge eating and it’s hard to admit, but I hope that others can relate to this as well! Emotionally it’s been a combo of burnout/sad/happy/sexually frustrated/numb for the past month. Basically all of August was a whirlwind of emotions and although I’ve been having incredible workouts (which i’ll write […]
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Sitting with my feelings
For the record, I have a love/hate relationship with emotions, I wish I could turn them off but they are also a part of who I am. Believe it or not I’m learning to love myself and even like myself! what a concept, self love. There is a huge benefit to leaning into my emotions, […]
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Coming out of a depression phase
Well hi! Long story short, the past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me mentally. My mental health is important so here are some things that have helped me recover from a depressive episode or whatever it’s called: I could probably write a bit on the last bullet point, but I feel better when […]
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Moments of clarity
The past 3-4 months have been heavy emotionally at times, I will often wake up sad like that is the expectation. News is heavy, life is heavy, and meanwhile I’m being triggered into emotional trauma and it’s all very heavy. But the past week I’ve reconnected with God and it’s been refreshing. He’s given me […]