Ketovore sample size

Extremely small sample size, but in roughly a week of prioritizing high fat animal products I feel good! Maybe it’s placebo effect but I’m going to try it for a month solid and evaluate. About 3-4 pounds have come off so far, but that seems like water weight mostly, (the whoosh) I’ll continue to monitor. I’m also opining on some body image issues I’m going through, shit sucks but writing about it helps.

Running/Gym:

I’ve been running, wind sprints specifically, well a modified version. I’m still getting used to running in my body, yes I feel very fat and self aware when I am running but who the fuck cares? Clearly I need to work on my body image issues, sigh, c’est la vie, that healing will come. So basically I’m running very fast but not a full out sprint, i’d say I’m at about 85-90% of my full speed. It sure gets the muscles going and the heart pumping, but I feel like a skinny boy afterwards, I’ve done some sprints for 2 straight days, hoping to make it 3 today. I’m very sore from my intense full body workout the other day at the gym and running has helped remind me of those muscle groups. Okay so can we talk about body image issues now?

Body image issues:

I absolutely detest my body currently, I have a bunch of loose skin and it really bothers me. It’s all aesthetic though, the skin doesn’t irritate me in any physical way, I just am very self-conscious and I hate that for me. I deserve better, way better, and I’m continually praying and doing self-love in order to change my mindset. I recently switched back to full-body workouts each time I go to the gym, which is about 2-3 times per week. I’ll tackle cardio and legs first, then I move up the body and do abs, back, chest, shoulders, arms, and neck. On the days I can’t make it to the gym, I try to do some sort of exercise. Last night I did 2 sets of planks for 30 seconds before bed then afterwards I exclaimed “30 seconds bitch,” because I make this anxiety my bitch. I want to take pride in my body sculpting so I’m kind of wanting this bodybuilder energy. Also, I have a tattoo appointment in 14 days so that will help me with my body image, at least I hope. Ugh I really need to shower myself with self-care. I need to rest and let God fill my cup up because I feel shitty too often!

Gardening update:

I have a bunch of fresnos and I expect my first harvest to be in early August with those, as well as cilantro. I’m thinking about taking my cilantro to seed so that I can do it again next spring, it would be my heirloom :). Ghost peppers still have no pods, but that’s typical for growing superhots in this climate (zone 6). My unknown superhot is still super tiny but is growing quickly, I’ll probably only have 1 harvest but it’ll likely be a lot of pods, because there are a lot of flowers on this plant. Going back to the fresnos, I’m very excited about the coloring, I made some carne picada tacos yesterday and the red color would’ve looked great on them.

uhhhh, that’s about it, this is my journal entry for July 14, 2021.

-nathan