This stall has gone on for about a year now, and I’m sick of it lol. I did absolutely zero research before I tried OMAD but I jumped in, did it a couple days and felt miserable. Of course I likely did something wrong, but I didn’t fell well. So I’m replacing with fasting, I did a 20:4 fast then did a 18:6 fast and think that’s my sweet spot. Something about consuming this much salt felt wrong. Maybe that’s a societal thing but I needed a lot of salt to fix keto flu symptoms, and peeing, so much peeing, I was annoyed at the peeing. I think i’ll start intermittent fasting regularly on weekdays and see how I feel, because that’s my ultimate goal is to feel better. Fuck losing weight if you feel terrible the entire time. My goal is to feel better, and weight loss is just a product of that. I cooked a lot this week, some good: grilled chicken thighs, some mediocre: canned chicken crust monstrosity. Ok, it’s not a monstrosity but it wasn’t amazing by any means, maybe I’ll tweak the recipe.
Next topic: My mentals
Cooking is so therapeutic to me, so are the nba playoffs, so are a lot of things. I’ve been utilizing free therapy and as I thought about it, I became very thankful for many things. God is free therapy, so is twitter, and shitposts, and friends, music, and gardening. Just a lot of things that make me happy. General thankfulness has made me feel renewed and have a better attitude. I’m resting, I’m healing, taking breaths, good times. I’ve been reconnecting with my sister lately too and it’s been nice, random ass conversations about childhood trauma have been therapeutic too! It’s always amazing to have such good friendships and relationships, no matter how small the circle.
Next topic: Gardening
So much rain, just so much, got a little roof leak too, my plants love it. It’s so funny the parallels I see with gardening and my spirituality, soul ties. I thank God for inspiring me to garden, every year I’m reminded of good things. God knew that I was going to endure some shit, and I’m glad he introduced me to gardening a few years ago. I’m reminded of Ephesians 1:14, 17-19, resting.
My fresno chiles have popped off so far, I have 3 large pods, I’m considering pinching them off to encourage new growth, again I’m just winging it with gardening, but plants are really resilient when I take care of their basic needs, again, a life lesson. The rabbits however have enjoyed my cilantro, but I have a small amount of new growth so it’s my Lazarus cilantro. Then that got me thinking, am I lazarus? Every day that I rest and heal I feel more alive, so yeah i’m lazarus bitch!
You may notice I have some new logos and have updated my social media with them, I’m very happy with them and will be using them a lot!
kthxbye
-nathan