Saw something on Instagram yesterday that hit me with a wave of sadness out of nowhere. I wanted to get rid of this feeling so I decided to pray and journal, and I had an epiphany in terms of my self-care. Here’s what I wrote:
I need to start thinking of myself less as a conduit and more of a vessel. Too often I think of my purpose as being a helper, or relative to my relationships with others. My identity is placed on being there for others so much that I am lacking self love and self awareness. Who am I? Outside of being a dad, or a son, or an employee, or a friend, who am I by myself? God is showing me who I am and helping me fall in love with myself. He’s teaching and I’m learning, may I continue to be a sponge.
That really helped flip my mood, and I realized my need to be kinder to myself. Goodness I lack a lot of self love and value, but I’m growing much like my garden.
Every day I wake up is a blessing from the Lord and an opportunity to show myself grace and kindness, I’ll keep up that energy. Good self care sunday things.
till next time
-nathan
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