Keto WritingsYikes y’all, I’ve been struggling with binge eating and it’s hard to admit, but I hope that others can relate to this as well! Emotionally it’s been a combo of burnout/sad/happy/sexually frustrated/numb for the past month. Basically all of August was a whirlwind of emotions and although I’ve been having incredible workouts (which i’ll write […]
For the record, I have a love/hate relationship with emotions, I wish I could turn them off but they are also a part of who I am. Believe it or not I’m learning to love myself and even like myself! what a concept, self love. There is a huge benefit to leaning into my emotions, […]
Well hi! Long story short, the past few weeks have been extremely difficult for me mentally. My mental health is important so here are some things that have helped me recover from a depressive episode or whatever it’s called: I could probably write a bit on the last bullet point, but I feel better when […]
The past 3-4 months have been heavy emotionally at times, I will often wake up sad like that is the expectation. News is heavy, life is heavy, and meanwhile I’m being triggered into emotional trauma and it’s all very heavy. But the past week I’ve reconnected with God and it’s been refreshing. He’s given me […]
Over the past several weeks I’ve noticed more and more people gravitate towards me, at random even! What does it all mean? Especially the last week, I was in line at a gas station when someone started complimenting my tattoos and I look back and he’s got this awesome neck tattoo so we got to […]
I stopped taking creatine, my reasoning was that I felt it was hindering my weight loss and the positive effects weren’t enough to outweigh that (yes this is a joke). There are other factors and i’ll definitely use up the powder at some point, it’ll just likely be revisited during a bulk. I use the […]
For my 34th birthday, I flew to New York City just for fun and had an eventful and fun weekend filled with laughter and FOOD. I didn’t eat keto but I had some NY staples: pizza, bagels, street food, etc. So much amazing food and the culture in NYC is just dynamite, always moving. I […]
I started introducing carbs to my diet more because I’m having amazing workouts and I’m gaining muscle. But i’ve been binge eating and I remembered how I would feel when I was 400 pounds, I felt guilty. After some thought I was like, “what if I just flip the narrative?” and I started changing my […]
Nearly all of my gym sessions are therapy in a way. I hate when people say that about things but what I mean is I am often very focused at the gym. I seldom get acknowledged, and I prefer it that way because I’m dealing with mental battles while I’m there. I go there to […]
Received a lovely reminder this week that healing is not linear. It was a few minor triggers but unfortunately it was hell for a few moments within my mind, a drastic decrease compared to 6 months ago however thank God. Making time for my mental health can be tricky, given that I still am (tepidly) […]