Keto WritingsIn celebration of my mental health, my weight loss, and all that, I scheduled a cheat day with a whole bunch of non-keto eats. It was delicious, I started off with All You Can Eat sushi with my sister (we’re the only sushi lovers in the family and she had been craving it for a […]
Im well aware that I’m dramatic, emotional, clingy, and i’m proud of that. I am who I am, I’ve been this way for years, it’s up to others to decide if I’m worth it. God has told me I’m worth it so if people don’twant to be in my circle, then it’s their loss. God […]
I have recently allowed myself the opportunity to act completely insane. Maybe that’s an exaggeration because I am dramatic after all but yesterday I was a mess, and I’m proud of it because I got some healing out of it. There’s a lot the general public didn’t see, and that was the war going on […]
This is going to be written in reverse, as a lot of healing has happened today. It had been a few days since I had a trauma trigger but I had some self-hate exposed to the light this afternoon. The result is starting today I am going to have a delusional love for my body […]
Pushing myself and my body feels both grueling and exhilarating. It’s amazing for my mentals, the rush I feel after exercising is fantastic. I recently switched to a full body workout, no more upper body and lower body, just my entire existence getting some gains. I posted my full body workout on my instagram where […]
I will scratch and claw and push myself just to get a boost of serotonin. I will go do things outside of my comfort zone because I feel like trying new things is good, and if it fails then I can joke about it. Often times I’ll get caught endlessly scrolling social media looking for […]
I was watching my 4 year old today while we were playing pretend before bed, he’s just happy to be here with me. That’s kind of cool, I feel valued, but also he’s not worried about anything else other than hanging out with me in that moment. I need a lot of that energy in […]
I treated my body like shit for 2 days this past week. I was going through a lot of mental anguish and wanted to feel like a piece of shit, so I engaged in some self-destruction. Yesterday the cycle broke, God once again reminded me that nothing will stop my healing. Not even my own […]
I absolutely hate this season of my life, mostly because it’s uncomfortable, new, and I feel overwhelmed at times. But, and this is a big but, I am learning to be content and hopeful for the next season. One of the things I do is I keep myself busy so that I’m occupied with mindful […]
Saw something on Instagram yesterday that hit me with a wave of sadness out of nowhere. I wanted to get rid of this feeling so I decided to pray and journal, and I had an epiphany in terms of my self-care. Here’s what I wrote: I need to start thinking of myself less as a […]