Keto WritingsIm well aware that I’m dramatic, emotional, clingy, and i’m proud of that. I am who I am, I’ve been this way for years, it’s up to others to decide if I’m worth it. God has told me I’m worth it so if people don’twant to be in my circle, then it’s their loss. God […]
Based on a lot of suggestions from the keto instagram community, I tried ketovore (read my post here) roughly a month ago and early returns are great. I have a lot of energy, my workouts are legendary (1500 calories burned this past Sunday), and the weight is really dropping. My goal is to consume 10g […]
I have recently allowed myself the opportunity to act completely insane. Maybe that’s an exaggeration because I am dramatic after all but yesterday I was a mess, and I’m proud of it because I got some healing out of it. There’s a lot the general public didn’t see, and that was the war going on […]
This is going to be written in reverse, as a lot of healing has happened today. It had been a few days since I had a trauma trigger but I had some self-hate exposed to the light this afternoon. The result is starting today I am going to have a delusional love for my body […]
I will scratch and claw and push myself just to get a boost of serotonin. I will go do things outside of my comfort zone because I feel like trying new things is good, and if it fails then I can joke about it. Often times I’ll get caught endlessly scrolling social media looking for […]
I was watching my 4 year old today while we were playing pretend before bed, he’s just happy to be here with me. That’s kind of cool, I feel valued, but also he’s not worried about anything else other than hanging out with me in that moment. I need a lot of that energy in […]
Extremely small sample size, but in roughly a week of prioritizing high fat animal products I feel good! Maybe it’s placebo effect but I’m going to try it for a month solid and evaluate. About 3-4 pounds have come off so far, but that seems like water weight mostly, (the whoosh) I’ll continue to monitor. […]
Do I really want to become a bodybuilder? I don’t really want to be competitive or anything, I just enjoy focusing on muscles and seeing how I look in the mirror. I posted on my instagram story about how I want to look, I envision a buff boy when I look in the mirror. I […]
I treated my body like shit for 2 days this past week. I was going through a lot of mental anguish and wanted to feel like a piece of shit, so I engaged in some self-destruction. Yesterday the cycle broke, God once again reminded me that nothing will stop my healing. Not even my own […]
I absolutely hate this season of my life, mostly because it’s uncomfortable, new, and I feel overwhelmed at times. But, and this is a big but, I am learning to be content and hopeful for the next season. One of the things I do is I keep myself busy so that I’m occupied with mindful […]