I have recently allowed myself the opportunity to act completely insane. Maybe that’s an exaggeration because I am dramatic after all but yesterday I was a mess, and I’m proud of it because I got some healing out of it. There’s a lot the general public didn’t see, and that was the war going on […]
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Different forms of self care
I will scratch and claw and push myself just to get a boost of serotonin. I will go do things outside of my comfort zone because I feel like trying new things is good, and if it fails then I can joke about it. Often times I’ll get caught endlessly scrolling social media looking for […]
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Surviving
I was watching my 4 year old today while we were playing pretend before bed, he’s just happy to be here with me. That’s kind of cool, I feel valued, but also he’s not worried about anything else other than hanging out with me in that moment. I need a lot of that energy in […]
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Ketovore sample size
Extremely small sample size, but in roughly a week of prioritizing high fat animal products I feel good! Maybe it’s placebo effect but I’m going to try it for a month solid and evaluate. About 3-4 pounds have come off so far, but that seems like water weight mostly, (the whoosh) I’ll continue to monitor. […]
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I have no other option
I treated my body like shit for 2 days this past week. I was going through a lot of mental anguish and wanted to feel like a piece of shit, so I engaged in some self-destruction. Yesterday the cycle broke, God once again reminded me that nothing will stop my healing. Not even my own […]
I absolutely hate this season of my life, mostly because it’s uncomfortable, new, and I feel overwhelmed at times. But, and this is a big but, I am learning to be content and hopeful for the next season. One of the things I do is I keep myself busy so that I’m occupied with mindful […]
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Self care sunday
Saw something on Instagram yesterday that hit me with a wave of sadness out of nowhere. I wanted to get rid of this feeling so I decided to pray and journal, and I had an epiphany in terms of my self-care. Here’s what I wrote: I need to start thinking of myself less as a […]
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I hate OMAD
This stall has gone on for about a year now, and I’m sick of it lol. I did absolutely zero research before I tried OMAD but I jumped in, did it a couple days and felt miserable. Of course I likely did something wrong, but I didn’t fell well. So I’m replacing with fasting, I […]
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The bulldog man at the gym.
I saw this guy at the gym recently, and he was fascinating. I approached him because I wanted to use the tricep machine and asked if he was on it. For whatever reason, I saw him as a future version of myself. He was probably in his 70s, gray hair, but built like a retired […]
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Let’s fucking go!
I can’t hide my enthusiasm for the switch being flipped. The switch into a positive headspace, we outchea! Today I’m screaming healing and God’s kindness towards me. I’m owning my shit, owning my need to heal, owning myself and my vibe. Ugh it’s been too long since I journaled, but I felt it was neglected […]